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Hey guys! Just checking in. Just playing around with a few wordpress/site things.
I managed to add a facebook social plug in, so now you lovely people can comment on my blog posts with facebook. (Cool huh?)

Where I am, we are on flood watch, and with all this rain we are having I reckon we would be in for a flood! I was going to go for a drive to Ballina tomorrow, But I don’t think I will be, with the big down poor of rain we are getting. (Better to be safe then sorry, right?)

I have been doing well at the gym this week! And the results are already noticeable. I was text messaging someone today, and sending pictures of my new outfits. We were talking about the sizes of my pants mainly. I said that I was a size 24 in work pants, and they are starting to feel VERY lose on me. The pants I bought at BIG W were a size 22. I tried on size 20 but went to size 22 as I found 22 more comfortable. So yes, believe it or not (it shocked me) I have gone down in a pant size. So all that hard work at the gym is paying off. (Ha ha!)

My passport arrived not yesterday, but the day before and yesterday my two crossroads items came in the mail. Here are two pictures. (Don’t mind the messy mirror ha ha!)

Also, Here is front/back pictures of one of my “after 5” wear.

I have already been back on-line on eBay (shhh) And I have bought 2 more dresses and 2 more tops. No more spending, I have banned myself. LOL. Although I really do need more pants. Tops and dresses are always so easy to buy for. But most pant items I tend to screw my nose up at them. (Ugh pants, who wears pants?) I really want to get my body out of just wearing black tights and black singlets. (Pretty boring hey!?) And start wearing more colour (Yes i’ve been told by others to get out of black ha ha). Also I would like to see myself wearing more pants.

Okay – I think thats it from me tonight. I’m gonna get back to doing more site things. I hope everyone stays safe with this upcoming flood weather.

Love & Light
Amanda.

Good morning readers, How are we on this rainy morning?
I finally managed to update my layout. It’s something I have been working on since before Christmas. It’s not ‘the best’ but I do like it. And I hope you do too. Who does my layout feature? It features Iggy Azelea.

Not long now until I leave Australia and head out on my cruise. 21st of March can’t come quick enough. My passport is on its way to me, I have almost finished shopping for new clothing. I just cant wait.

Who ever has been following my blog lately, would know that I was going to make a decision. What is that decision I hear you ask? Well very soon I will be leaving my hometown, my state, friends and family, to live in Bundaberg/Queensland, with my true love. I have always wanted this, maybe not Bundaberg/Queensland, but I think I am ready for the move. It will be a nice change for myself. A fresh start. Exactly what I need. I do need a break from my hometown.

I think once I am all settled in, it would be a chance to start making plans for the future, the next step. Which of course would have to be, do you hear it? *wedding bells*. I bet you all thought I meant having a child. Well hate to break it to you, but I am not ready for a child right now.

I went to the gym yesterday and I was down 800grams! That’s not exactly much but it’s still exciting. I have started going to like, an aerobics class on Wednesday at the gym, and I really enjoy it. Even my mum comes with me!

I hope you all have a fantastic Wednesday, and I best get some sleep. (I swear I wasn’t up at 4.30AM writing this) haha.

Love & Light
Amanda

So, things at home haven’t really been the greatest, these last few weeks. I often wonder if it’s a good or bad thing to speak your mind, to those that you have a problem with.
So I spoke my mind, and clearly it bit me on my arse. And since then, things at home have not been good at all.
I am sick and tired of getting headaches on a daily basis, due to stress.

I do realize I cannot control people’s actions and their decisions in their life. The only decisions I can control are my own. I just wish some people would make better choices in their lives. I only want the best for people.

I am tired of putting my life on hold for other people. These last few years, I feel like I have been wasting my time. I always seem to put other people first, and very rarely do what I want to do. I have always had people make up my mind for me. I had always gone with the flow and followed other people’s decisions in life.

I always seem to let people manipulate me into situations which I don’t always want to do. Yes, it’s partly my fault because I did not have the guts to say no.

This is the second time I have moved out of mum and dads, got myself set up and started to feel comfortable where I was living. I thought things were going well. Only to be three months down the track, to be put back where I started from, the only thing different is more debt and more bills to pay off. On top of the seven thousand dollars I already owe.

I have been thinking long and hard about my future. Where I want to be in the next 5 years. I am going to soon make a decision about what is best for myself, my future. How I want to live my own life.

The only thing I can say right now, is that I will be taking a step back from helping others, and letting them learn things the hard way. I realize now my help and my time is no longer needed by certain people, and sure that’s fine by me.

I can no longer put off what I want to do. I can no longer help others and get nothing in return. I am done trying to make something work, when it just obviously just wasn’t meant to be.

I have tried being the bigger person, tried to simply ‘get over things’ , maybe it’s the others that need to simply ‘get over it’ .

I guess this is what growing up is all about. Making decisions for yourself. Making a bad decision and then learning from your mistakes.

Currently I have made a few bad moves these last couple of years, but I feel now I have another shot, another opportunity to make things right for myself. I just need to pick myself up, and try again.

My time starts right now. The next chapter of my life starts right now.